Carefree

Boo and Halle used to be across the street neighbors. They were the best of friends. Played everyday, all day. Halle moved, Boo got a baby brother, Halle got a baby brother, life changed for the both of them. They didn't see each other for a while, Boo kept asking to play. They finally got together and it was the sweetest reunion.

They played and played and played. They felt so comfortable in each others company. Nothing was awkward or scary. No new babies or unfamiliar faces. They danced, cooked, colored, told stories, played dress-up, rode bikes, and ate treats! Nothing in life feels better than being with your best girlfriend even when you are 4 years old.

The Jazz!!!

The Jazz Bear.

That blond in the back have no idea who she is.
Jazz Dancers

Back row, Miss Sassy

Shaun helped with the backdrop

His one shot on the Jazz floor

Our Super Girl

MaKaya started dancing on a competition team this year. It has been a lot of hard work, and even a few tears. I kept telling her that when she gets to perform it will all be worth it. On Monday she was able to dance at the Jazz game. Her hard work paid off. She loves to perform and has a lot of fun doing it.

Next week is her first competition with many more to come. Happy Dancing Super Girl!

Babies

I have always LOVED being pregnant. I am so excited from the moment I get that positive pregnancy test. I once tried to keep my pregnancy a secret and it felt like I was literally going to burst with excitement so I never tried keeping it a secret again. I'm not sure why I love being pregnant. Is is the way my round tummy looks, maybe. Is it feeling them move, probably. Is it because I know that I get a newborn to hold and love, I'm sure that's it.

My pregnancy with Crew was different. I didn't know why, and I didn't like it. Everyday seemed like a million, I was grumpy, I was miserable, I was no fun. It wasn't until he was born and they placed him in my arms that I connected that he was my baby, my baby to keep.

When I was pregnant with the twins I had to completely disconnect myself from them. Anytime, anywhere, no matter who, I always told them I was carrying twin boys for my sister-in-law. I never made it my own, because it wasn't. I couldn't decide at the end of the day that I wanted to take these babies home, it wasn't a decision I could change. I was fine with that, I was very happy to be able to give Angie her babies but in order for my heart to allow that I had to disconnect.

I didn't realize it until weeks after Crew was born that I disconnected. I didn't let my heart fully wrap around the fact that I was having a baby for me. A few hours after Crew was born my nurse encouraged me to do skin to skin with him. He was having a few struggles. When my tiny warm baby boy was laying naked on my bare chest an overwhelming feeling of love and emotion was literally consuming every pore of my being. His spirit was connecting to mine, I was allowing my heart to love him completely.

Being pregnant is a sacrifice. A sacrifice for mom, for kids, and especially for Dad. But of all things to sacrifice for, having a baby for me is the best sacrifice of all. There is nothing in this world I enjoy more than having a baby. Everything about them is so pure. They just came from the arms of my Heavenly Father and I can feel that. My girls can feel it. My husband can feel it. Babies are special.

I hope that I get to have more babies. I hope that when I do I remember to connect right from the beginning.

A Day on the Farm

I was not prepared!

Lexi wants a horse for her birthday.

Our good friends the Hullingers (the ones that let us bury our Sammie on their property) live on the funnest farm. We got to experience a little bit of what its like. Hanging out with them is just perfect for us, because everyone has a friend. Lexi and Hailey, MaKaya and Macy, and Boo and Avery. I have Monica and Shaun has Kevin. I keep telling them that Crew needs a buddy but I can't convince them to give er a try. We had a lot of fun and didn't want to leave but date night was calling. After spending some time there I can now understand why their kids never want to play at our house, it is boring!!!

A new Blog

I decided it was time to start a new Blog. Girlsgirlsgirls was so much fun, but now we have a boy, and he can't be left out. So with a new blog, I have new goals for myself. I do not keep a journal and so blogging is really the only way that I have a history of what we are doing. Sometimes when I think about posting I think to myself no one will want to read about that, or that is boring to everyone else, and then I remember that this blog is for me, and my family. My girls LOVE reading our blog and constantly ask me to update it. I also love going back through my blog and reliving our experiences again. It makes me sad for the months that there are no posts or only one or two. So my new goal is to post twice a week. If you see my slacking please don't hesitate to whip me back into shape. Happy Blogging to all of us!!!