Thursday, October 2, 2014

One of my favorite things to do is look through my old blog posts, and then I get really sad because I didn't keep writing in it.  So much has happened that I can't possibly remember it all, let alone write it all down.  I have to be better I just have to.

Crew is 5!!!  What did I just say??? Crew is 5.  How could he be 5?  How can my youngest child be 5???  Why didn't anyone tell me that having my kids get older would break my heart.  Don't get me wrong I love to see their accomplishments but man oh man having them need me less and less really is sooo hard on me.  I kept asking Crew to please not turn 5 and his response was.... "Mom my body just does it". I never knew that a little boy would complete my life like he does.  I never knew I needed a little boy.  I'm so glad that we don't get to pick the sex of our children, if we did I wouldn't have my little Crew.  I love him so damn much!!!  You know what..... he loves me too!  He hates going to pre-school because he misses me so much (sniff sniff) It literally kills me every time his little bottom lips starts to quiver, he begs me to let him stay home.  "But I miss you mom, I just love you so much mom, I just really really miss you".  How I stay strong and have him go to school I'll never know, because guess what, I'd give anything to have him stay home and play baseball in the front yard, or watch Phineas and Ferb he's my little buddy and I miss him too!

Have more babies!!! Have lots and lots of more babies.  They make life so much better!  They are a lot of work, but it is so worth it.  I would give anything to have another baby.  Anyone want to give me a baby???

Crew took donuts to school for his birthday.  He's at that awkward I don't know how to smile stage but one day I will look back at that smile and wish I could see it again.  I'm crying now.  Anyone want to give me a baby?

His actually birthday is tomorrow.  I have got to pull myself together so I can help him celebrate.  Earlier today he said, "I just want to go to sleep so I can wake up and it's my birthday!!!"  The joys of being young!!!   Enjoy the little things, for the little things really are the big things!!!